To all the women who experience this day hurting and broken
To all the women who parent alone with an absent spouse and
carry all the weight of raising your children by yourself.
To the single mothers who day in and day out get out of bed
and serve your families because love drives you to show up.
To all the women who do not have a mother or mother figures
in your life.
To all the mothers who do not have men who celebrate them,
to all the mothers who do not get to feel appreciated or valued or told how
good of a job you are doing, today I celebrate you.
You women are the everyday heroes because no matter how
tired and exhausted and hurt and unappreciated you feel, you keep showing up,
keep serving your family even though you cry from the loneliness and tiredness when
no one watches. I see you and today I
To all the women who grew up with or have absent mothers who
are alcoholics and drug addicted, and you choose to break the cycle and not
repeat history, I celebrate you.
To the women who kept their babies even when the voices
around you told you not to and now you are a mother, I celebrate you.
To my own mother who has overcome so much brokenness and adversary and has become the strong woman she is today—she broke the cycle and she showed up every day—today I celebrate you.
Motherhood-the hardest journey you will ever venture on. It breaks you and reshapes you. There are tears of frustration and exhaustion, tears of joy and celebration. It is the hardest, yet the most beautiful and worthy journey. To all the mothers that choose daily to show up and keep going, today is your day, and I celebrate you.
Two years ago I was unhappy.
Not like “having a bad day” unhappy.
I was deeply, emotionally unhappy.
I was missing joy in my life. I was
missing creativity. I wasn’t sure who I
was anymore or how exactly I had ended up at that point in my life where I just
felt unmotivated, unhappy and uninspired.
I was a Christian, couldn’t I just pray this away?
No. It wasn’t that simple.
Yes I was a Christian.
Yes my faith was real. But I was
still in a rut. And no matter how much I
prayed I still had to find a way to climb out of that rut.
I had recently quit my job as an agency nurse. I had a crazy immune reaction that put me in
the ER for days and the medication I had to be on for the following weeks
caused me to gain 20lbs! And to top that
all off, my back locked up causing me to need intense chiropractic treatment
and muscle relaxers just to cope with the pain.
I was a hot mess, and an emotional train wreck.
I remember praying one day, “God, help me lose 5 lbs.”
I wasn’t expecting an answer so quickly, but I very quickly
heard that still, small voice say, “No Sarah, I am not going to do that for
you. That’s not how I work.”
I was a bit offended and caught off guard. However, the more
I thought about it, the more I realized how self-centered that prayer was. God is not a genie granting me my
wishes. If I wanted to change, I was
going to have to take a hard, deep look at my life and make a plan.
God didn’t want me to lose 5 pounds! He wanted me to stop
looking for a quick fix and to start taking care of my body. He wanted me to stop making bad decisions and
to start caring for myself. I knew something had to change, I didn’t know how
just yet, but I was determined that I was going to change no matter what.
This is the part where my goals first were created. You see, deep down we all have goals, ideas of
what we think our lives should look like, might one day hopefully look
like. But what we lack is a plan. I got out a pen and a journal (I have about 5
at any given time that I write in) and I did something that scared me. I dared to dream and I dared to write my
What if I failed?
What if my goals didn’t work out?
Well, I figured at the very worst, I would still be in the
same miserable spot I was in. At the
very best I would succeed. Either way, I had nothing to lose and everything to
So I wrote out goals and made them real. I dated my pages so that I could not forget. I was scared to dream big.
I wanted career fulfillment.
I wanted to lose the weight I gained and to have a healthy
lifestyle day in and day out.
I wanted to be fun again.
I wanted to have fun again.
I wanted to write.
As a working mother of 3 girls, it is very easy to lose
yourself and your identity in the daily chaos of real life and raising a
family. The chores and to-do lists really never end. You need to take time re-evaluate and set a
course for your life that you want to travel on.
Today, 2 years later I had that moment of realization. That
moment where I realized that the very goals I have been working on for the last
two years are my daily life now. The
dreams that I wrote down on paper two years ago and was scared to even say out
loud for fear of failure have come true.
As I take time to reflect, it is clear to see that it was not an easy journey. There were tears and growing pains. When I fell down, I refused to stay down; for I knew that if I didn’t get up and keep pushing forward, I would remain miserable and nothing would change.
I fulfilled my 10 year dream of becoming an ER nurse. I am almost at my 1 year mark in the ER. I am also working 12hr day and night shifts. Something I simply thought I wasn’t strong
enough to do. And to take it one step
farther, I have lost the 20 lbs and working out 4 times a week is a normal and
natural part of my life; one that my family has come to embrace and join me. We eat so much healthier than we used to.
I am so proud of all the changes that have taken place. All the small, daily decisions towards my
goals have added up to an awesome outcome.
If you look at your life and are uninspired, don’t give up! I have been there, its a hard place to be in. I challenge you, take a deep look. Ask yourself what you want your life to look life. What do you want your life story to say? And don’t stop there. Get a pen and paper, and give life to the dreams and goals that are deep down. Big or small, just start somewhere.
Pray for God to give you wisdom and direction on how to start making positive changes in your life. And pray for the audacious courage and determination to follow through on your goals and dreams.
If you do nothing, you will be sitting in the exact same spot one year from now. Don’t waste a year.
From childhood we have been created to dream. We dream of being astronauts, firefighters, scientists and
ballet dancers. We dream of being
superheroes, world changers and race car drivers.
Our dreams were big, larger than life but vivid and to our
childhood selves, attainable.
Dreams are beautiful, our soul is inspired, imagination and
creativity are ignited. Passion to
achieve our dreams drives us onward.
As I walk around my messy house, stepping over abandoned
toys, books and papers left by my children, a large part of me feels that
dreams and creativity died a long time ago.
My days seem filled with tasks, chores and quite honestly, there isn’t a
lot of energy left to spend on the pursuit of dreams.
I was recently reading a book directed to mothers, and it
asked “What are your dreams?” And it
challenged the reader to write down 3 or 4 dreams on paper.
I must have dreams, this should be fun.
So I thought about it.
And I thought about it.
And I thought about it and blank!
I could not even think of one. Not one.
Does watching Netflix and eating a peaceful snack at the end
of an exhausting day count as a dream?!…because then maybe I had one.
Or maybe have my children clean up after themselves, then I
would have two dreams.
But in all seriousness, this really shook me.
When did my dreams die?
Did my creativity die too?
I used to be such a carefree soul. I wholeheartedly believed any dream was
Did the craziness and business of motherhood do this?
Maybe the very act of becoming a mother, of learning to ‘day
in and day out’ selflessly serve your
family and the very constant needs of little ones, causes our dreams to fade away.
Maybe it’s the fact that motherhood, or adulthood changes us
so much that we put the notion of perusing dreams away, dismiss it as
ridiculous and no longer practical.
In a lot of ways I hardly recognize my 22-year old self and
can almost laugh at her dreams. Ten years later, I dare say I am much wiser and
stable. Jetting off to a new country on
a whim in pursuit of adventure is not as important to me as it once seemed. Maybe maintaining a stable, thriving
environment for my family is my dream? I
just do not always recognize the beauty in the mundane.
My God and my family are hands-down my absolute priority and
I never want that to change.
But, I want to carve out space to dream again.
In my own life, in my day to day, I want to incorporate
creativity, aspirations and dreaming.
I want to bring creative energy into friendships and
relationships. I want to be surrounded
by people who encourage and inspire and support dreams, alongside with
accountability to speak up when maybe a dream is misguided.
So, I took a journal and a pen (old fashioned here, I love putting
ink on paper), and over the course of 2 weeks, I thought, pondered, searched,
scribbled out and re-wrote down some dreams of mine.
So I will pass on the same question to you, what are your dreams?
I encourage you to write on paper, your top 3 dreams.
We come alive when we are creative.
I challenge you to find some creativity in yourself.
We are capable of so much more then we think we are. Sometimes we need to be reminded, encouraged
or perhaps given permission to dream big.
I bought myself a coffee mug with the words “dream big” on it. It is to be my reminder in my day to day to incorporate life, colour, creativity and dreams into my beloved chaos.