Growth is hard. The internal emotional rollercoaster I have been on has been exhausting. I have come to realize that I do not do mediocre well. I am not lukewarm. I am in or out; up or down; high or low; excited or sad. I do not simply exist well. So this is why I am pursing vision for my life in Christ. I want to lead a great life, I want to make a difference, I want to be a world changer, I want to help people find the joy of Christ.
So I sit here and write, and read scripture (today is Ephesians 1) and pray.
“Father God, reveal Your vision to me for my life. Give me a glimpse of what You want for me. Show me the next step to take and give me the audacious courage to follow that vision for my life. I pray that you will equip me with the tools necessary to be successful and follow through. I pray that You will anchor me so that when I start to drift, You will pull me back to Yourself and I will not lose course.
In Christ’s name, Amen.”
I am learning how easy it is to set out with a great goal and great intentions, and yet drift and lose focus. This journey is not for the faint of heart! It is easy to drift. It is easy to quit. It is easy to accept that it is too hard and stop. Staying the course to completion is that hard part.
I am learning that one must be audacious, showing a willingness to take surprisingly bold risks. I have gone up on stage and shared my heart, my past, my dirt and how I found healing in Christ. This is not for the faint of heart. But if I keep it all in, then what good will I do? Who would I help if I didn’t share how Christ helped me? How could I possibly make a difference by keeping quiet? So I choose to do that thing that scares me, and I get on stage and share my story, my failures and healing in Jesus. I absolutely love the quote by Nelson Mandela,
“There is no passion to be found playing small-in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.”
You cannot accomplish anything of greatness by sitting idly and not working on change.
Philippians 2:13 “For it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.”